new idea:

bags knitted into the shape of dog paws.
ive been making home-made dog treats since i was a little girl- so putting those treats INTO the paw and selling them at local pet shop/supplies shops.

:D

id rather trade, id rather trade than sell tooo youuu

time to do a remix of a remix of "id rather dance"

but really... i want people to see me burn my money. thats probably why i dont have any money; because i dont care about it or like it. but i guess i need it. so thats why ive been whoring myself around east nashville trying to get jobs. i hate myself so much rite now.
ive decided to sew bones and fish on bags and sell them to pet stores with homemade cat and dog treats inside.
i am thinking of leaving my internship.. thought this was going to be a good thing but it looks as if ive attracted yet another demon.
i dont want to, i like everyone else there but im bored by it and turned off by this freak who keeps trying to fight. whaaaaaat hello im so non-confrontational. i think thats the attraction... the reason im bored is because i am at a point where i would rather listen than question. all of a sudden. if ever, its been a long time since ive been here. i feel that faith can answer any question that arrives. i wish i could just make art.
i took some amazing pictures of myself (thats why theyre amazing) wearing some of my bags. but even though they were on the computer, for some reason they just dont exist and wont upload. so take my word for it: i look good, and so do my bags, and i look good in my bags.

so surreal

knitting is a spiritual experience for me. its hard for me to articulate. its really intense, and today i learned i wasnt alone in thinking that. stopped by jennas today, she told me her girlfriend at work knits and told her it was really intense. sometimes its good to feel less alone in the tiniest ways.

the other knight i was knitting and had this sense of oneness with everything, because of the whole imagine it here, realize it there, one-step-at-a-time thing. something about the transferring to the other needle is quite sensational, as well. some rlly sxy pics comin soon.

will i ever be able to articulate the beautiful epiphany i have just had of knitting?
not right now, but i will soon.

the guy who i sold a bag to last week came back this morning. he said all of his daughters friends loved the bag, and to email him. so im gonna do that.
working on a bonnaroo bag for a friend, very specific. cant wait till its done.
cant wait to perfect the avery, also.
i was certain the hat i was making would be the one, but now im certain its going to be the next one.
and the one after that will be even better.
soooo tired. goodnight (favorite word)

G O O D N I G H T

thanks

i keep singing "he is exalted the king is exalted on high" in my head (not out loud) but thats all my brain is remembering so it is on a perma loop. im clenching my teeth, i cant stop. but rebecca is cooking, dinner smells great, and things are happening. got an internship at www.soulpancake.com and hoping its going to go well and become a good creative outlet. i got along with most everyone instantly. i wonder if they got along with me though, hahah.
and ive got like, 4 people who want bags and hats.
trying to get a job still.
ive never made a new years resolution, but im about to make a resolution right now:

give thanks, and be happy. try to let as much stuff that bugs you go as possible. (did that second sentence make sense?)
buy my bags.

brown bag